My saturday morning is filled up with the usual chaos, just like any other day. my husband is not gifted with a full weekend- he has to work a 6 day week. This affects me big time too because after 6 days of at least 12-14hours of full on babysitting, chauffeuring, cooking and all that housewifey, eherm i mean..”house managering” jazz…anyone could easily go a bit wacko in the head.
this morning, which is a Saturday by 12pm, i have accomplished as below all in 3hrs:
1. fed kids breakfast
2. bathe and dress up kids
3. completed a rush order
4. cooked lunch
I mean, honestly…the routine makes me sick at the end of the week, i cannot lie. of course everyone needs a break. sometimes i fall into depression, sometimes i think my marriage is not working anymore because at the end of the week i will be emotionally, physically, and financially exhausted and honestly..i did it all on my own so i really don’t understand what good his extra hours are actually doing for me and the kids.
Nowadays, i put my whole heart into my birthday outfits orders. i am beginning to experiment with a lot of new designs. the final finished product gives me such a great feeling. like i have accomplished something great. and receiving feedbacks and comments from likers in fb and instagram makes me feel happy and appreciated.
It became a therapy for me when i feel really down and it keeps all these ridiculous thoughts at bay. it has become a way for me to stay strong and same through the long week.
So yes, i really appreciate it when people trust what i do and feel happy with the outcome i give them. behind each birthday outfit, there’s always a story on my side.the more detailed or more beautiful it is…the more complicated my thoughts were and i really need to translate them all into happiness. in a form of a birthday outfit. hehe. it’s just part of how i cope.
Thanks so much for loving what i do:) you have no idea how you’re helping me reat my thoughts:)